He was here only a few short hours, but He made a lifetime of difference to me.

I have started and stopped this entry seven times tonight.  I am both appalled and angry in regards to the things that I have read and seen on mindsay regarding religion and homosexuality.  I believe I can speak on both issues as I am both, a Christian and a lesbian.  And before mouths hit the floor, yes I used both words in the same sentence.

I do not wear my sexuality like a banner, I don't have rainbow stickers on my car, I don't have rainbow pins stuck to my shirt and I don't walk around screaming in someones face about who I am.  I will stand up for my rights and I will fight for what I believe in.  But, when you come to my blog, you will not see "Welcome to Queer Land" posted everywhere.  I don't blog about my life in regards to my being gay.  Every other line isn't I am gay, I am queer.  As a matter of fact, I am ex military and that is the first thing you will see, the next thing you will see is the fact that I had a son that died.  Thereafter will be stories on my life, my job and my family.  If you can't handle it, oh well.

I am sick and tired of ignorant people that use the Bible, God, and Christianity to hide behind and excuse their behavior.  If you're attracted to a woman and don't want to be, stay out of lesbian bars and their pants.  No where does it say stop talking to women all together.  Believe me there are some straight women that will turn your head faster than a gay one and if you think that staying away from the gays is going to help you stay on the straight and narrow, honey you might as well live in a hole.  If coming to my blog is a temptation, I'm sorry, because there is nothing here to tempt you.

If you believe that homosexuality is a sin and God will punish me for my sins, then so be it.  But let me ask you a question.  Did God punish my sins by taking away my son?  Did God punish me by putting me into an abusive relationship?  Did God punish my loved ones by giving them a mental disease because of my sexuality?  Because if you believe that, then you don't believe in a fair, forgiving or a loving God.  HE created me in HIS image and HE created me to be this way.  There is nothing in the Bible or in YOUR church that is going to prove otherwise to me.

Somewhere in the Bible it states that the only one to hand down judgement is God, so for those of you that feel the need to judge me, my advice to you is hit your knees and pray, because you're the ones that need it.

That is my rant for the night.